As I worked with A Program in Wonders, I possibly could see that there clearly was a fear of heavenly love in my mind. I noticed this was the ego’s anxiety about dropping itself. The pride is scared to be subjected and being regarded as a puff of nothingness. That is the fear of intimacy. We discuss this anxiety in associations, which may also be predicted as fear of sexual closeness, but it is acim an anxiety about dropping our persona, our disguise of individuality. It’s the fear of getting taken out by way of a glorious love, a enjoy therefore powerful that none of us may even imagine something as glorious and effective!
For me personally, those would be the big techniques, since it does not start off with this particular good awareness. It always starts with emotion like you have done something wrong, whether you’ve masturbated, stolen anything, mistreated someone, or there’s something in your thoughts that you’ve evaluated as therefore hideous that you don’t even want to manage it, you just want to overlook about this and push it out of awareness.
Underneath all those memories and ideas, may be the belief that individuals are separated. This is actually the “secret” we hide. It truly is an difficult opinion, but we feel it is true; We have evaluated it as terrible and have pressed it out of awareness. All unconscious guilt arises from that belief in separation. And as you really give your self over to the wonder, you feel all those concealed beliefs and techniques are now being washed out and you eventually face that hidden belief in separation!